Thought #33

Know that the Lord, he is God!

It is he who made us, and we are his;

we are his people, and the sheep of

his pasture.

- Psalm 100: 3

I'm not sure what kind of life you have.  But I know that life can seem like hell at certain points.  Like all you want to do is walk out behind School Street and sit up on Burial Hill.  And when you climb the steps in those moments each step is its own Everest.  Somehow you still move on.  Then when you're at the top of that desolate place you sit on a lonely bench.  Stare out at the ocean with trees shadowing the way.  And you catch glimpses of the wind passing by.  And the world is a wash in that moment.  But everything still exists like hell flooded in.

You sit and cling to your Bible.  You don't even open it.  That's not necessary.  You cling on to the only thing you know to be true - "That the Lord, he is God!"  Even that thought doesn't pass your mind.  Because you're too consumed in all the happenings.  You're rushed out of the life you knew.  To go.  Leave.

But how do you move on?  How do you truly leave what you've loved for the last four years?  What you've poured your heart and soul into?  How do you just pack up camp in an instant and leave?

Well, you don't.

But you sit on that bench with one thought on your mind - "It is he who made us, and we are his."  Because no matter what happens in life there's always that one constant.  There's always God.

And you should know that.  You should know that where ever you are in life at this very moment, God is God.  You should know that He is your God.  And more importantly, you should know that you are His.  No matter what, you are a part of the world God created - you are "the sheep of his pasture."

Headaches and tears.  Torn from love and thrown to thorns among roses on graves and graves against skies - the horizon's melting into waves.  Far beyond all the fog and under the clouds lies the life you want, but the only way to get there is through the waves weathering storms.  Colliding worlds.  Falling stars.  Wishes washing overboard.

God is God.  And God is still there.  Celestial collisions among natural man.  You are His.  Wandering among pastures with one single piece of knowledge - the Lord is God.

Leave.  Sit.  Know.  God.

(Is with you.)